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Dear Life,
we need to talk. This is getting out of hand. Where is our relationship going? There's all these ups and downs. There's lull but sometimes you get out of hand. I don't know what you want from me. I would appreciate some consistency.
I want some commitment. When is this going to end, do you know? Is this just going to be a blip, insignificant, or a long and fulfilling experience? What happens after we finish, you won't even tell. I have so many unanswered questions about you, but no matter what others say I still feel like I know nothing. No books, expert, psychiatrist or philosopher could totally explain everything about you to me, opinions aside.
I'm starting to wonder if we have the same ideas for how this should turn out. I feel like you're leading me in a different direction then where I want to go. This wasn't supposed to happen this way. Why didn't you tell me this is how it was going to be? Why don't we talk anymore? I used to share my ideas and dreams, things were so much more simple. Now I'm confused. I wish talked the way we did.
I wish it hadn't come to this. I tried and tried to make things work but it seems like it's becoming worthless. I'm starting to see no light at the end of this tunnel. So life, we have an ultimatum, there needs to be an improvement. We need to have a common understanding, we need to work together. This is just not going how I want. It needs to get better, or it's ending.